I have decided the purpose of this liquid diet is to make it all real ( okay and shrink my impossibly huge and fat liver!). For the second time in two days my sweet friends and Glee kids have made me cry.
Yes you read that right. Glee.
Specifically the Defying Gravity song from Wicked.
Some things I cannot change
But until I change I will not know
And as I sit here in my car, tears in my eyes, I have realized something... I am doing a huge, hard thing. A huge thing that I might ultimately not excel at.
And that's scary.
I know I'm not perfect. I make mistakes on a daily basis. I'm not that conceited!
But when we do hard things, we usually have no or little foresight that the thing we are doing is going to be hard.
Sure, there are some things... I imagine becoming a parent is like that. Taking a new job. Embarking on a marathon.
This is a hard thing that I am doing in public and I think my brain needs to catch up to that. But in the meantime I think I'll rewind the song and let myself cry.
I have always heard the a good cry frees your soul and spirit. So go ahead and cry all you want because this whole process will set you free to be the person you want to be. Do this for yourslef and no one else.
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